I will cherish.

When I can't have you, it feel so much hurt in this world. When I see you with your lover, it shred my heart. What should I do to ensure that I will not be the one to cause you and I the pain..? Should I just leave and gone with the memories of you and me? Gone forever to cherish your happiness.

How Could you?

How could the one you love hurts you this deep. How could you not saying a thing and leave without a trace...

Boy Culture (Movie)

If this felt so right we should go for it and see where the pieces fell. What happens when you meet Mr. Right too soon? You grab him. There’s no such thing as too soon. ---> Boy Culture.

Pride of Love

when you love someone, you will forget your pride and forgive even it hurts so much... the reason of loving you have no specific explanation because it is just you that I love..

Memories and Time

Memories reminds us of great things that we have
in the past, Time reminds us of the previous years we took to acquire today accomplishments.

If I would love someone else.

If I would love someone else, I must gather all the love that possible in this world so I could try to love someone other than you. The love I ever felt this much, is just for you, no one else, no one before you and I don't know if I could have someone to replace you in my heart. Even if I found another, will it be the... same, or it is just a time pass in this lifetime. Above everything, I want you to find happiness. It will be enough for me to know you are in good care of your real love. I will be happy to see your smile of happiness because it is the only source of my happiness. I wish I could show you how much love I have for you, but it take you deep into my heart to know how much it is filled with your smiles. Wish I could display it, but this love is something that I could not just replace with another.

Isn't it kinda Late or its just begin?

Sometimes it is really confusing about how I feel generally. It has been few days I wanted to write and relief the anger I feel within.

Somehow, it is 1st of June and actually I kind of feeling happy and excited with what’s coming next. I am not going to allow my feeling fool me again. I have suffered enough pain and I always avoiding it all this time. Someone has taught me this. I feel happy now. I am happy about how things will work out for me.

I felt accomplish and hopefuls. After chasing the things that I wanted, it is just not what I suppose to have. The fear of loosing is now no longer tickling my heart. I am strong again, I am numb again. I used to hate this numb feeling, but the fact is, this is me. Nothing ever have affects on me, nothing! Now I am back to who I am. I can't believe I said this. But I do remember the memories. I do miss it very much. But I can’t look back and ignore what have happened.

Well, I am not rejecting any possibility in the future. But I’ve to be focus and set my priority right. It is the beginning, it is not too late. Never is too late for anything. Therefore I am looking forward for my future, where it will bring me.

1st June actually celebration of Harvesting Festival in Sarawak and I am here in Libya planting “seeds” for next year harvest festival (Gawai Dayak). I am sure of where I am going now.. I am going to focus to make it real.

Stop all the sadness, and move on… I always have and will do it again. Must stay firm and be strong.